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And they continued on

Journal Entry: Fri Jan 9, 2015, 11:48 AM
  • Mood: Depressed
These last several months have been complete and udder anarchy. I would give anything for a sense of calm and peace right now.

My health and I didn't even last a month in Richmond, my asthma took a sharp decline, and I was sent home.

I came home the weekend before Thankgiving. My parents were understanding, and we had another family over for the holiday, which was amazing. Highlight of last several months for sure.

I spent a month at home, playing housekeeper and playing to go back to school that next semester.

My grandmother has a stroke. She's already dealing with muscular dystrophy (en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Muscular…) due to a bad reaction to a vaccine. I came out to Memphis TN from Va to drive her around and help her until she's doing better.
I'm not driving anymore, since she claims I am "an incompetent driver".

Driving has never been may favorite thing to do, and driving around here is terrible. (People, turn signals were invented for a reason!) And of course she's quick to point out how I haven't been driving very long. A van driver rear ended us, (it was a minor accident, no damage done to either car.) and he came up to make sure we were okay, and to give us his info if it turned out we weren't. He's all apologetic, and she goes right out and tell him he shouldn't be sorry, that it was my fault. He kept insisting it wasn't my fault, and she told him that of course it wasn't his fault, seeing as I'm "a horrible driver." He backs off, and we continue on to the house she cooks and does minor chores for.
Yep, she can't take care of her house, but she's taking care of someone else's! She ranting and scream at me, and so I try to leave, which of course, just angers her more.
So I end up in that neighborhood in the middle of street, crying to myself. I walk a little while, and end up in a YMCA with a nice woman who listened to me and prayed with me. Thank God for random kind-hearted people! She drove me back to the house, where my grandmother has been on the phone with her employer complaining about me. How that is any of their business, I'll never know.

I've been trying to a be patient. It's not a strong suit of mine. I'm constantly at my wits end, and trying not to do something impulsive. People keep telling me she's angry with herself and taking it out on me. She seems perfectly content with herself! 

I don't know why I'm writing this, other than I need to get this all out and be able to look at it. if anyone reads this, got tips on how to restrain one's self? Any advice on patience? I'll take whatever I can get.
Since it's 2015, I've been thinking of what I want to do with this year. Being unhappy isn't on that list.

"I am determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation I may find myself. For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is determined not by our circumstance but by our disposition."- Martha Washington
 I'm working on it. There's no 'happily ever after' just 'and they continued on'. and that I shall!

T-minus 28 days and counting

Journal Entry: Tue Aug 26, 2014, 11:06 AM
  • Mood: Excited
  • Listening to: Pandora Radio
Star! UPDATE: I leave October 20th and will be gone at least 3 months. This is a test run, if all goes well, I'll leave again for 15 months this time.Star! 


(Don't really find me and slam me, that's be creepy-and I'd get hurt!)
For those who remember, I'm preparing to go on a mission. (mormonbookworm.deviantart.com/…)
Due to both my allergies and my being on a prohibited mental med, I had a three month delay in everything. I was patient, went off the allergy shots and messed with my mental meds. Everything's worked out now, and I'm checking the mail everyday for my call (the letter that will tell me where I'm going and the such.)
This means and that I may fall off the map abruptly, I don't know. It wouldn't be here-today-gone-tomorrow stuff, I'd have some warning, but I'd have to drop everything on dA. I won't be allowed on for 1.5 years.

Back to the point of the journal-I'm going to want to be nice and say I'll help you with something-but I'm not yet aware for what I'll have to be doing when-so don't let me be nice. (This goes double for you two, GrimFace242, and Nichrysalis don't tempt me with your awesomeness!)

Help me stay strong guys, please!
Don't worry, like I said, I won't disappear, and I'm making arrangements with one of my RL friends who's on dA to keep up my journals.
I most likely will be able to send emails weekly, so if you'd like them, note my your email.

I can't wait!
Impatiently yours,
MBW

I may or may not have ordered pizza tonight...

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 15, 2014, 10:25 PM
  • Mood: Satisfied
  • Eating: pizza
  • Drinking: the last of the dr pepper
I don't know if I'm in a TMNT mood or what, but after looking at the snippets of info about the newest movie, (The jury is out for a formal opinion until after viewing.) or having had the ability to watch some of the Nick show, I wanted pizza.
Now, I shouldn't eat wheat-I can't digest it. But any decent gluten free pizza is either out of my league thru pricing or distance. So I got the gluten kind, and (hopefully) it will last several days. And I won't be up later getting sick. (Worse case scenario)

In other news, I'm actually quite happy with life right now. No particular reason, I suppose just an absence of anything hurtful. It's nice to be happy sometimes.
I'm working around the medical hold my mission papers were put on- and I'm nearly done with everything. I was on Abilify, a mood stabilizer and an antipsychotic. Although I was taking it for bipolar and nothing more, I couldn't serve a mission while on that medicine. When I was first told this-I'm not going to lie-I cried, I screamed, I threw a royal fit. But now it looks like everything will be okay.

This is a pleasant first.

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Anna
Artist | Hobbyist | Literature
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I'm a bored 20 1/2 year old woman short on patience and high on randomness, headstrong-ness (IS that even a word?) and I've got an unhealthy obsession with fan-fiction. And cartoons, but that's another story...
I'm currently having my butt kicked by college, homework sucks.
Yes, as my penname says, I am Mormon. If you've got a problem, well, deal with it. If you've got questions, just ask.
***Some notes about me:
~Nearly everything I write comment-wise is meant to be taken lightheartedly, but unfortunately, written words don't have tones. (So if I'm consoling on the illness of you /your dog, then I'm serious. If you're not sure- please ask!)
~I'm impatient. Nothing can help me wait. Period. It kinda comes with Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD).
~ I'm bi-polar, so if I sound moody, I try, but some days are better than others, sorry.

Current Residence: America
Favourite genre of music: I listen to it all!
MP3 player of choice: ipod touch
Wallpaper of choice: a nice plain lime green... :D
Skin of choice: mine, the one that's on me.
Favourite cartoon character: can't choose just one!
Personal Quote: Normal is a cycle on the washing machine.
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And they continued on

Journal Entry: Fri Jan 9, 2015, 11:48 AM
  • Mood: Depressed
These last several months have been complete and udder anarchy. I would give anything for a sense of calm and peace right now.

My health and I didn't even last a month in Richmond, my asthma took a sharp decline, and I was sent home.

I came home the weekend before Thankgiving. My parents were understanding, and we had another family over for the holiday, which was amazing. Highlight of last several months for sure.

I spent a month at home, playing housekeeper and playing to go back to school that next semester.

My grandmother has a stroke. She's already dealing with muscular dystrophy (en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Muscular…) due to a bad reaction to a vaccine. I came out to Memphis TN from Va to drive her around and help her until she's doing better.
I'm not driving anymore, since she claims I am "an incompetent driver".

Driving has never been may favorite thing to do, and driving around here is terrible. (People, turn signals were invented for a reason!) And of course she's quick to point out how I haven't been driving very long. A van driver rear ended us, (it was a minor accident, no damage done to either car.) and he came up to make sure we were okay, and to give us his info if it turned out we weren't. He's all apologetic, and she goes right out and tell him he shouldn't be sorry, that it was my fault. He kept insisting it wasn't my fault, and she told him that of course it wasn't his fault, seeing as I'm "a horrible driver." He backs off, and we continue on to the house she cooks and does minor chores for.
Yep, she can't take care of her house, but she's taking care of someone else's! She ranting and scream at me, and so I try to leave, which of course, just angers her more.
So I end up in that neighborhood in the middle of street, crying to myself. I walk a little while, and end up in a YMCA with a nice woman who listened to me and prayed with me. Thank God for random kind-hearted people! She drove me back to the house, where my grandmother has been on the phone with her employer complaining about me. How that is any of their business, I'll never know.

I've been trying to a be patient. It's not a strong suit of mine. I'm constantly at my wits end, and trying not to do something impulsive. People keep telling me she's angry with herself and taking it out on me. She seems perfectly content with herself! 

I don't know why I'm writing this, other than I need to get this all out and be able to look at it. if anyone reads this, got tips on how to restrain one's self? Any advice on patience? I'll take whatever I can get.
Since it's 2015, I've been thinking of what I want to do with this year. Being unhappy isn't on that list.

"I am determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation I may find myself. For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is determined not by our circumstance but by our disposition."- Martha Washington
 I'm working on it. There's no 'happily ever after' just 'and they continued on'. and that I shall!

Journal History

So tonight's a big night! 

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2 deviants said Help! (comment with advice please!)
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1 deviant said And today's the day, and I'm starting to panic.
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1 deviant said I've never done this before!
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No deviants said So I asked a guy over to my house so I could make him dinner.
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No deviants said He said yes.

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KCrutcher100:iconkcrutcher100:
Good luck on your mission!
Sun Oct 19, 2014, 12:56 AM
kittykruger:iconkittykruger:
Hi!!!
Sun Feb 24, 2013, 6:27 PM
Majcen007:iconmajcen007:
Love your new contest!
Wed Nov 21, 2012, 1:25 PM
DarknessPanthera
BUT I NEED TACOS I NEED THEM OR I WILL EXPLODE... THAT HAPPENS TO ME SOMETIMES...
Wed Feb 29, 2012, 8:36 AM
Nobody

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savrom Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the watch! :happybounce:
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mormonbookworm Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
you're welcome!
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Toph51496 Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave!
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mormonbookworm Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I actually meant to fave Baby Groot as well, (it was an open tab). You had me at cuteness!
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Toph51496 Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm glad you like it!
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KCrutcher100 Featured By Owner Edited Oct 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Just wanted to wish you luck on your mission! :) -- Kelly
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mormonbookworm Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
The time I was gone went well.
(I'm home because I got sick. Asthma +cold=going home)
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TheEvilOvelords Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014
Thanks for the watch!! :happybounce:

-Amy
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mormonbookworm Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome! :glomp:
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TheEvilOvelords Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2014
:huggle:
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